Fragments from the darkness

“Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.”      —  Oscar Wilde

Chatlog from an unknown source:

“So… I’ve got the last question for today. ”

“Go ahead.”

“When you were repeatedly replying with ‘No it’s not some ‘old habits’ and I still like you as I always did. ‘ kind of stuff, and trying to make someone belive that the relationship not being a burden to you, did you even think about… ”

“Thought about the answer itself being a burden to that ‘someone’ ? ”

“Exactly.”

“I did. But meanwhile I kept denying this possibility to myself. ”

“Well, to say it straight, this is an act of fool, all of it. You used to be different. ”

“I’m aware of that, and ashamed as well. ”

“So you did think about ‘I’m gonna move on.’ or something alike, eh? ”

“Yea, but the only reason I kept it only as a ‘thought’ is… I need a ‘trigger’ to put the thoughts into actions. ”

“No you don’t. You already have too many excuses. Listen to me: It starts today; it starts now. ”

“Still, I… ”

“Enough! I said all that because I really l… ”

[Connection lost]

[流程图]“I will talk with anyone about anything.”

吵架流程图。

Disarmed

日前，迪拜（Dubai）警方在一架飞往美国的UPS货机上发现一个炸弹，比较恐怖的地方在于，炸弹藏身在一部毫不起眼的HP打印机里，被当作一般OA设备运送，并且装上Nokia手机的主机板，恐怖份子打算用遥控的方式引爆。

幸好还没起飞前就被发现，因为这架货机会经过德国、英国，最后到美国，歹徒比较有创意之处（当然是用途不好的创意），是把固态的炸弹，据说是 PETN（PentaErythritol TetraNitrate），弄成粉末状，装在激光打印机的墨粉盒里，装在打印机里运送。并且找了一部Nokia 6120 Classic（Symbian based）智能型手机，先在手机行事历设定好时间，然后手机提醒与来电皆改为振动，然后把手机拆光只留下主机板与SIM卡，固定在打印机主机板的旁边。 如果日程表的提示时间还没到，歹徒也可以打这部手机的号码来手动引爆。

炸弹粉末填充在墨粉盒实在看不出来，没有人会去检查墨粉盒里面装得到底是不是碳粉，作为引爆装置（就像雷管）装在打印机内部也一样难以辨识，也没人会去拆 解打印机，就算拆了，手机主机板也会被当成一般主机板，加上PETN对于撞击、摩擦与晃动相当敏感，如果快递搬运上飞机太过粗鲁，或是飞机着陆时的晃动， 都有可能导致炸弹引爆，这是非常恐怖的事。幸好该名恐怖份子已经遭逮捕，并且无人伤亡，笔者不禁开始佩服恐怖份子的创意，也让笔者学到了一些炸弹相关的知 识啊。

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唯一的疑问是，既然看上去天衣无缝怎么还是被检出来了呢- -

第一桶

不过好像确实少了点>_<……

下午的时间要是能再找个兼职啥的就好了，嗯。

推测，全是推测

审慎习近平 “拍桌论”一鸣惊人

中国下一代领导人群初现轮廓<下>习近平的性格特质和政治取向

朝鲜日报记者 吕始东 (2010.10.22 17:08)

中国下一届最高领导人有力候选人习近平同胡锦涛、江泽民相比，和后者的相似之处更多一些。从“红二代”的出生身份到品性、浑厚的声音和强健的体魄中可见一斑。下面通过习近平的个人倾向、经历和背景等因素猜测一下习近平时代的政策方向。

◆勤勉、谦逊→集体领导体制有望加强

据评价，习近平为人勤勉。2002年担任浙江省委书记后，习近平在接受当地媒体采访时说自己做得最好的事情就是“深入基层，关心百姓疾苦”。他说，自己来到浙江省的九个月里，走访了自己管辖的90个县、市、区中的69个，令记者为之震惊。

中国媒体在形容习近平时经常使用“平易近人”、“谦逊”等词语。得力于曾担任副总理的父亲习仲勋（1913-1992年），习近平获得了老干部、老军人的 支持，但他却总是把姿态放得很低。如果中国共产党下届最高领导班子（政治局常务委员）组成以后，习近平很有可能会在重要悬案上遵从他们的意见做出决策。在 习近平执政时代，已经步入稳定期的中国集体领导体制有望进一步巩固。

▲中国国家副主席习近平指出，自己的最大优点是“深入基层，关心百姓疾苦”。图为，习近平去年8月在内蒙古自治区呼伦贝尔看望师生时发表讲话。照片=《呼伦贝尔日报》提供

◆亲民倾向→有望推动社会和民生改革

习近平的父亲在文革时期曾遭迫害，后来恢复权力担任了副总理，因此可以说，习近平的人生轨迹也是“童年辛苦、成年顺利”。他虽然出身于“红二代”，但却被公认“没有架子”、“平易近人”，这也和他饱受煎熬的童年时期以及父亲的严厉教诲不无关联。

父亲遭迫害时，习近平为加入共青团和共产党分别写了8次和10次申请书。家里环境不错的时候，他也生活得非常俭朴。他随父亲到人民大会堂时，因为穿得衣服 太破，一位工作人员甚至不屑地说：“谁家的孩子啊，穿这么破的衣服到处走？”习近平回忆说：“父亲非常重视勤俭节约，我们四兄妹小时候不分性别，衣服换着 穿。”

习近平曾坦率地说，父亲经常会让孩子们站成一列进行一场训话，鼓舞革命精神，对此真是非常厌烦。习近平这种简朴、平易近人的性格有望让他推行扩大社会安全网、接受民权意识等亲民改革政策。

◆果断、坚定→非常时期会果断决策

习近平过去接受采访时曾说：“有时候拍桌子是必要的，拍桌子比不拍桌子好。不拍不足以震慑，不拍不足以引起重视。”“拍桌子”意味着非常愤怒。但他还说，不能简单地发泄情绪，应该考虑到发火的后果，“理智地发泄愤怒”。

习近平担任福建省宁德地委书记时曾调查出2000多名违规修建住宅的公务员，令人们震惊不已。他曾经说：“是300万人该得罪，还是这二三千人该得罪？我 宁肯得罪这二三千人。”面对美国等西方国家对中国的抨击，习近平曾多次发表强硬讲话。专家普遍认为，习近平有一种在非常时期以信念和原则为本奋勇前进的气 魄。由此可以推测，如果今后同美国、日本等国发生纠纷，中国的声音可能会比现在更大。

◆保守、慎重→民主化和政治改革可能推迟

“不要提出过多的新见解和新创意，最重要的是行动。”习近平担任地方官员时还曾说：“新官上任的人中很多人想给人带来新感觉，证明自己的能力，但我不这样 认为。”从他的发言中可以看出他不会推进急剧的改革。因为过于保守，他几乎没有犯过错。很多人分析称，在同优秀的副总理李克强的竞争中能够领先对手正是因 为他的慎重。因为“总理失误有办法解决，但总书记失误就束手无策”。但是，如果最高领导班子里的多数人倾向于改革，他也很有可能不会拒绝。

又拿IE开涮了……

HTG Explains: Why Do So Many Geeks Hate Internet Explorer?

It’s common knowledge that almost every single geek hates Internet Explorer with a passion, but have you ever wondered why? Let’s take a fair look at the history and where it all began… for posterity, if nothing else.

 

Contrary to what you might think, this article is not meant to be a hate-fest on Internet Explorer—in fact, we’re pretty impressed with the hardware acceleration and new features in Internet Explorer 9—but keep reading for the whole story.

In the Beginning There Was IE, and It Was Good?

We’ve all been so used to thinking of Internet Explorer as that slow, buggy browser that is behind the times, but it wasn’t always that way—in fact, way back when, Internet Explorer pioneered many innovations that made the web what it is today.

Here’s a quick tour through the easily forgotten history of the infamous browser:

1996: Internet Explorer 3
This version of the browser, introduced in 1997, was the first browser to implement CSS (Cascading Style Sheets). Yes, you’re reading that correctly—in fact, it introduced many new features like Java applets and sadly, ActiveX controls.

1997: Internet Explorer 4
IE4 introduced a blazing fast (at the time) rendering engine as an embeddable component that could be used in other applications—this was a lot more important than people realize. This version also introduced Dynamic HTML, which allows web pages to dynamically change the page using JavaScript, and added Active Desktop integration.

Even more weird? Seems like nobody remembers this anymore, but IE4 was actually cross-platform—you could install it on Mac OS, Solaris, and HP-UX—and by the time IE5 was released, IE4 had reached a 60% market share.

1999: Internet Explorer 5.x
Microsoft invented Ajax. Wait… what? That’s right, it was this version of IE that introduced the XMLHttpRequest feature in JavaScript, which forms the underlying technology behind every web application you’re using today—you know, like Gmail. Of course, the term “Ajax” wasn’t actually coined until years later by somebody other than Microsoft, but this release supported everything required to make it work.

So Yes, Microsoft Innovated
From IE3 until IE6, Microsoft used all their resources to simply out-innovate the competition, releasing new features and better browsers faster than Netscape. In fact, Netscape 3 Gold was a buggy piece of junk that crashed all the time, and Netscape 4 was extremely slow and could barely render tables—much less CSS, which would often cause the browser to crash.

To put it in context: web developers used to complain about Netscape the same way they complain about IE6 now.

What Made It Go So Very Wrong?

The trouble all started when Microsoft integrated IE into Windows as a required component, and made it difficult to uninstall and use an alternate browser. Then there was the whole business with them exploiting their monopoly to try and push Netscape out of the market, and a lot of people started to view Microsoft as the evil empire.

Microsoft Stopped Trying
By the time Microsoft released Internet Explorer 6 in 2001, complete with lots of new features for web developers, since there was no competition and they had a 95% market share, Microsoft just stopped trying—seriously, they did nothing for 5 years even after Firefox was released and geeks started migrating left and right.

Microsoft-Specific Features
The whole problem with Microsoft’s innovation is that much of it was done in ways that didn’t follow the web standards—this wasn’t as big of a problem when Internet Explorer was the only game in town, but once Firefox and Webkit came around and started following the standards correctly, suddenly it became a huge problem for web developers.

Security Holes and Crashing
Since Microsoft decided they didn’t need to try anymore, and they didn’t keep up with the competition from Firefox and other browsers, bugs and security holes just cropped up left and right—really terrible ones, too. For instance, this code is all that is required to crash IE6:

<script>for(x in document.write){document.write(x);}</script>

In fact, the screenshot at the beginning of this section was a live example of testing out this particular bug.

IE7 and IE8 Were Too Little, Too Late
It took 5 years after IE6 for Microsoft to finally get around to releasing IE7, which added tabs and made the browser slightly more tolerable, but for web designers it was still a nightmare to deal with, and only complicated the issue since now you had to make pages render correctly in two lousy browsers instead of just one.

It took another 2.5 years for Microsoft to finally release Internet Explorer 8, which greatly improved CSS support for web developers, and added new features like Private browsing, tab isolation to prevent one bad page from taking down the whole browser, and phishing protection. By this point, most geeks had already moved on to Firefox, and then some of us to Google Chrome.

Here’s the Real Reason Geeks Hate IE

Just because we’re geeks doesn’t mean we hate everything that’s inferior and outdated—in fact, we often love retro computing—that’s why we love Atari, NES, Commodore 64, etc. We take pride in our geek knowledge. So why’s Internet Explorer a different story?

Here’s a couple of reasons that fueled our hatred of the buggy browser, and finally put us all over the edge:

Supporting IE is Like a Fork in the Eye for Web Devs
Here’s a sample of a day in the life of a web designer: You spend hours making sure that your page looks great, and you test it out in Google Chrome, Firefox, Safari, and even Opera. It looks great, awesome!

Now you open up IE and the page looks like somebody put it into a blender and hit the Whip button. Then you spend double the amount of time trying to fix it to look tolerable in IE6 and IE7, cursing loudly the entire time.

Geeks Forced to Use Internet Explorer
And here’s where we come to the real issue—the whole reason that geeks can’t stand Internet Explorer:

Geeks everywhere were forced to use Internet Explorer at work even when there are better browsers, forced to support it for corporate applications, forced to make sure web sites still work in IE, and we couldn’t convince everybody to switch to a better browser.

Geeks don’t hate something that’s inferior—but they do hate it when it’s forced on them.

The Good News: The Future Might Be Brighter

Thankfully it seems like Microsoft has finally learned from their many, many mistakes in the browser world. They are below 50% in the market share wars, and they’ve finally learned to focus on using web standards.

Internet Explorer 9 is about to be released, it’s got a shiny new interface that looks a lot like Google Chrome, blazing fast hardware acceleration, and supports HTML5 surprisingly well—in fact, it’s so much better that 34% of our readers said they will switch to IE9.

Microsoft is billing Internet Explorer 9 as the browser that’s going to change the world, and they aren’t wrong—they just aren’t mentioning that they were the only ones holding the web back with their anemic browsers. And now that mess is finally over.

把MSN Space导入新浪博客之后的结果

 

看来我只能留在WordPress了……

The Riot

 

[转载]越长大，越难和另一个人在一起

不是因为条件。还是有人喜欢你，你也活得比以前更好，不再那么任性，更像在投资的艺术品。

也不是因为对爱情死心。在KTV突然听到的某首歌，会让你不自禁模糊了视线。一些场景，一些气息，始终无法忘怀。朋友帮你介绍时，你也会满心期待。

却依然单身。闭上眼睛吹蜡烛的时候，总是希望身边有另一个人一起许愿。一些客气的场合，有人来搭讪，话题围绕着你单身的原因。而他们最后给出的结论是，你太挑了。你在心里面笑，所以其他人都不挑？

其实你自己知道，为什么不能好好谈一场恋爱。就是因为，你太清楚自己是怎样的一块料，所以不会再轻而易举把自己交出去。就像是，有一天你发现跌倒以后的伤口，会开始留下疤痕，于是走路时不敢再大步跨出去。

因为，你惯性太强、记性太好。认识一个人很简单，忘记一个人很困难。你曾经心满意足的闭上眼睛，让另一个人带你去任何地方，最后却差点回不来。所以不能再失去方向感。

于是你就变得胆小了。以前喜欢男生有幽默感，现在更在乎安全感。以前打电话找不到人就拼命的打，现在发了短信没回应，即使心中有波动也可以忍住。以前最有兴趣的话题是对方的过去，现在会先关心这份感情有没有未来。

所以，空暇的时候，你宁愿和朋友在烈日下逛街，也不愿让对方觉得自己很在乎什么。你安慰自己，有朋友就够了，一个人生活也很好。你忘记了当另一个人女朋友的感觉，当那个人出现时，你开始慌张、害怕。

只是，你并不是一定要单身，就像你也没计划过一定用哪只手写字。不过是，既然如此了那就这样吧。你想要有人一起旅行，一起看电影。你想和那个人说自己准备好了，只是没有勇气，请对方多一点耐心。你想说不再需要太多惊喜，在心里等的是一份相守以望的感情，抬起头来相视而笑，安心的生活，如此而已。

[转载]下里巴症候群

作者：马伯庸

上星期的某一天晚上，我和一位朋友在西单附近吃饭。席间我们高谈阔论，指点江山，臧否人物，言必及王小波、余杰、村上春树、奥尔罕·帕慕克，聊的十分尽兴。大约到了9点多，我们方才起身结帐，各自回家。我踏上地铁之前，忽然看到一处还没收摊的报刊亭，就走了过去。从西单到四惠东大约11站，全程要 30多分钟，我必须得买点什么东西消遣。

我的视线从《科学美国人》扫到《译林》，然后又从《看电影》扫到《三联文化周刊》，来回溜达了五、六分钟仍旧游移不决，直到摊主不耐烦说要收摊了，我才催促自己下了决心，在摊子上抓了一本《读者》，匆匆离去。在地铁里，我捧着《读者》看的津津有味，全然不顾自己曾经一逮着机会就嘲讽这本杂志的种种劣行。《读者》杀时间很是不错，我在西单等地铁的时候翻开扉页寄语，在建国门看到中缝后的笑话栏目，然后四惠东地铁停稳的一瞬间，我刚好扫完封底的广告。

尽管我一下车就把《读者》顺手塞进垃圾筒内，扬长而去，但我必须得承认：我在刚才的30分钟过的很愉悦，那些小布尔乔亚式温情故事和心灵鸡汤让我发酵出一种中产阶级的微微醺意。

我上上星期去了一趟三联书店，用公司发的雅高卡买了许多一直想要但很贵的书，比如王鸣盛的《十七史商榷》、张岩的《审核古文<尚书>案》、杨宽的《中国古代都城制度史》、《百变小红帽－一则童话三百年的演变》，还有若干本“大家小书”系列的小册子。买新书是一件令人愉悦的事，尤其是买了这么多看起来既深沉又有内涵的文化书籍之后，感觉旁人注视自己的眼神都多了几分恭敬。我捧着这些书兴致勃勃地回到家里，把它们一本一本摆在书架上，心里盘算哪些书以后写东西用得着；哪些书以后吹牛用得着；哪些书可以增加自己的修为和学问。

盘算到一半的时候，腹中忽有触动，五谷轮回，山雨欲来。我的视线飞过这些崭新的内涵书，抽出一本机器猫，匆忙跑进厕所……

类似的事情其实经常发生。比如跑去看现代艺术画展，最后发现真正停留超过两分钟欣赏的，都是裸女主题油画；买来许多经典DVD，最后挑拣出来搁进影碟机的只有《恐怖星球》和《料理鼠王》，看到男主角居然是大厨古斯特的私生子时，还乱感动了一把；往PSP里灌了300多种历代典籍文献，然后只是一味玩《分裂细胞》——甚至当我前天偶尔在手机里下载了一款类似口袋妖怪的JAVA游戏以后，我连PSP都不玩了，每天在班车上和地铁里不停地按动手机键，就如同一位真正的无聊上班族。

我有一次看到《Little Britannia》里有个桥段：男主角之一跑去一家高级法国餐厅吃饭，对着白发苍苍的老侍应生说：“给我来份加大的麦辣汉堡。”这让我亲切莫名。

我把这个发现跟朋友们说，他们都纷纷表示自己也有类似的经历。有人拟定了全套瑜珈健身计划，然后周末在家里睡足两天；还有人买了精致的手动咖啡磨，然后摆在最醒目的位置，继续喝速溶伴侣。最后大家一起唉声叹气，试图要把这个发现上升到哲学高度，提炼出一点什么精神感悟，让自己上个层次什么的。

但是这个努力可耻地失败了，于是我们发现这是一种感染范围很广泛的疾病。

简单来说，下里巴症候群是这样一种病：我们会努力要作一个风雅的人、一个高尚的人，一个脱离了低级趣味的人，结果还是在最不经意的时候暴露出自己的俗人本质。我们试图跟着阳春白雪的调子高唱，脑子里想的却总是阳春面和白雪公主。

一般这种疾病分成两个阶段：第一个阶段是你发现了“超我”，折射到现实社会，就是你买了一台西电KS-16608L；第二个阶段是你发现了“本我”，每天晚上都用这玩意儿听《两只蝴蝶》。

其实仔细想想，这种疾病或者说生活状态很不错，一来可以满足自己的虚荣心；二来又不会真正让自己难受——要知道，让一个俗人去勉强风雅，比让一个风雅的人勉强去俗气更不容易，毕竟不是每个人都象郭沫若那样进退自如，能写出《凤凰涅磐》和《咒麻雀》来。

按照文法，在文章的结尾应该提纲挈领，但是刚才已经失败了，现在也不会有什么成功的可能。所以我还是以一个隽永温馨的哲理小故事作为结尾。

我有一个朋友R。有一次，我们一群人去看一部话剧。当时去的早了，话剧还没开演。百无聊赖之下，我们就跑到附近的一家书店闲逛。我偶尔瞥到其中一个书架上放着一些关于佛教的书，忽然下里巴症又发作，于是微皱眉头，用轻松安详的语气说恰好在旁边的A说：“最近俗务缠身，我忽然很想看看禅宗的精神，让自己的心空一下，也未尝不是件愉悦的事。”

Y没理我。我低头一看，R原来正蹲在地上，聚精会神地捧着从书架角落里拿出来的大书。

“你在看什么？”

A把书举了起来，我首先看到的是Y愉悦的表情，然后是封面硕大的字体：“慈禧美容秘籍。”

R的真诚和坦率就如同初春的阳光，我看到自己虚伪的面具惭愧地开始融化。心灵被震撼的我扔下了南怀瑾、南怀仁和慧能，毫无矫饰地抽出一本《奇侠杨小邪》。

我的内心学着《发条橙》结尾的阿历克斯，大声呐喊：“I was cured all right。”